Monday, February 6, 2012

ヒロイン失格 (Heroine Shikkaku) - Chapter 21

N sees R sitting alone and wonders if he's crying. She's convinced that he's crying after recalling that he had already broken up with A. She wanted to use the hose to spray water on R so that others can't tell that he's crying.

R insist that he isn't crying.

H is think about R and A's break up and on the other hand she's thinking about hugging K.

H came to find K naturally. She decides not to tell K about anything so that it will not cause him unnecessary worries. She sees a pin on K's hair. *he looks so so so cute with the pin!!!* K's classmate lend him the pin as his hair is too long. H pretends to be angry about it as she enjoys making K's a little bit of trouble. She turns around and K is missing!

H wonders is she went overboard. K pushes H against the wall and said: "Hatori-chan, you loose."

K: "You should let me win once in a while."
H: "When did i ever win?"

K: "I'm not telling you."

H thinks to herself: When i'm with K, he seems to always allow me to be myself and making me willful. SOrry R, i'm very happy now."

R out from the bathroom and he received a call from A.

He picks up the phone.... *i wonder what happen*

It's going to be Christmas soon.

H in the toilet is wonder what she should do for Christmas with he first boyfriend and she heard some conversations outside talking. They are talking about R and A. A is absent from school again and they are putting the blame on R.

H urged them to stop talking bad about R when they don't even know him well enough. The girls starts to say that H is to blame as well.

News starts to spread in the school and everyone thinks that R is the bad guy. H is really pissed off and she swears to stop all these rumors.

H feels sad seeing R being bullied by their schoolmates. H dislike herself for not being able to do anything for R and she's always able to be by R's side when anything happens but not now.

N joins R when she sees him squatting at one corner listening to music. She asked if it's really ok for him to just let others bad mouth about him. He said he's fine with that as he thinks that he's really the worst for what he had done. R warns N not to hang around with him if not she might also be targeted however N decides to hang out with him.

They spend their time at the arcade center.

R starts to talk to N about the phone call from A. It's actually from A's parents. They scolded R for hurting their daughter. R thinks that it's natural for them to be mad at him. R then took out a letter to show N. The letter is from A. Seems like her parents confiscated her phone and she apologized on behalf of her parents for scolding R.

In the letter A wrote: Like how R told H that you will always stand by H. I will always stand by R. Now i too hope for H to be happy. I'm sure K will be mad if he sees this letter.

R thinks that it's best for A if she had nothing to do with him. Now, she is still only thinking about him.

R thinks that since junior high school onwards, he's not responsible enough.

N thinks that he's silly to think this way. She tells R to lift up his head and listen carefully.
N: "One has to be defeated before tasting success. It is not totally redundant to go out with a useless guy....

... reassured. A is able to find a better guy next time, life is long.

R: "N is like a granny."
N: "Are you trying to pick up a fight?"
R: "Thank You Nakajima."

R: "You seems to have saved me by calling me BAKA."
N blushed a little and she wonder if her mother nature causes her to care for R and wonders what's with R's smile just now.

R thanks N for keeping him company. N is having flashes for R's smile when he said thank you.

Someone shouted "Kyouko!"

It's R, he pulled N back quickly and a car drove past. It's still red light when she wanted to cross the road.

Kyouko is N's name which she uses in junior high school. She uncomfortable with people calling her by that name now.

R: "Be careful on your way home, Kyouko-chan." (he's doing it on purpose.)

H, on the train and she's thinking about R. She wonders how is he doing and if he's feeling miserable alone.

K calls H when she's thinking about R. K tells H that he's alighting at the next station. H blames herself for thinking about R when she's with K. K asked H if she's worried about R since just now.

K: "Hatori-chan, if you are so worried about Terasaka, why don't you stay by his side?"

K: "You can come back to me anytime. What's your reply?"

H rushes out of the train to hug K and replied with a loud yes.

K: "This is bad, you've alighted."
H: "I love K the most!"

K kisses H.

H thinks to herself "Wait for me R, tomorrow onwards i will be by your side!"

On the other hand, N keeps telling herself, no it can't be, no it can't be.

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ヒロイン失格 (Heroine Shikkaku) - Chapter 20

H is feeling really happy and it's showing all over her face.

K: "Why? What happened?"
H: "Nothing. I'm just feeling happy to be holding my boyfriend's hand and walking home."
K: "Isn't this something very common?"
H: "To me it isn't.:

H: "Everyone thinks that it's naturally for the boyfriend to come pick her up and to receive a ring from the boyfriend. I really envied them very much and that is why i'm feeling really happy now."
K: "H is easy to pleased. What about others?"
H: "Huh?"
K: "Do you have other things you wish to do? I will make all your wish come true."

H is feeling so much bliss that she's actually a little worried.

Back at home, H's mum told H that she has a visitor and she's actually A.

A is here to have a talk with H.

A asked: "I'm wondering is R is going to break up with me. I suppose maybe, because he has come to like H. I might have said it before that we should respect one's decision. No matter how miserable i feel, if R no longer likes me, there's nothing much i can do about it...

... and that is why i will respect R's decision. How should i handle my own feelings. To handle my feelings... how wonderful can it be if one can just throw away one's feelings into the trash bin."

H: "A, are you serious about what you just said? What do you mean by throwing away your feelings? Shouldn't you protect your own feelings?"

A: "Who should protect my love for R?"

The righteous spirit in H burns up and she told A that she's going to support her no matter what happens.

In bed at night, H wonders what she should do for saying those words to A in the day.

H looks at her mobile and it's 1:30am. She wonders if K is asleep already. She wants to call him but is afraid to wake him up. In the end, she decides to call him and let the phone ring 3 times and she will hang it up.

K picks up the phone in his sleep!

H told K about A's visit in the day and that A already knows that R likes herself now. H wonders if she's really so kind to worry about them. However, she still thinks that it's best for the 2 of them (R and A) to be back together.

K: "R is serious about liking H?"

H is shock.

K: "Isn't it kind of sudden for R to have a change of heart? I think he likes H because H likes me now. He's trying to challenge me."

H now wonder if R is like what K said. If that's the case, then R does not really likes H. H thank K for enlightening her and she hangs up the phone.

Now, it's K's turn who can't sleep.

H asked N to help R. N refuses thinking that it's troublesome.

N: "Why are you doing all these? Isn't it R's decision to like you or not?"
H: "R does not like me. There's nothing of this sort."

H said that in a loud voice and R happened to be behind H.

H: "I don't think you like me. You dislike K and that is why. It must be because when i like you, i'm always around you but now i'm not around anymore and you feel lonely. You are the one who ditched me."

R: "That is right....

... you've thought alot about it."

H is feeling trouble.

She thinks to herself: "I'm feeling all the happiness alone now... but this can't be help, he's he one who ditched me. R might still like A normally now... i wanted the 2 of them to get back together is not because of A or anyone else..

... In the end, i just do not want myself to end up as the bad guy."

In class, R see two kids outside and this reminds him of himself and h when they were kids. They were one their way home when H suddenly disappears. R feels worried when he turns around and H is no longer around. The H appeared behind him and scared him.

Kid R: "I thought you are gone?"
Kid H: "You got a shock didn't you?"

A sees R and pick up her courage to go up and talk to him.
A: "What are you looking at?"
R: "Nothing much."
A: "I've received 2 movie tickets yesterday, if it's possible..."

Some one shouted H's name out loud and R turns his head towards that direction.

When he realised that A is still talking to him, he quickly turns back and apologized to her.
A: "Um... it's really nothing."
R: "I see."

H lie on her classroom desk and thinks to herself: There's really nothing i can do. How can i not like the R is used to like so much?"

R: "No matter how i think, i think i like you."

H lift her head up and sees that it's R who said that to her.

R: "I'm sorry."

H: "It's too late. Really, is it true? However i see it, it's impossible for you to like me so suddenly. How much do you rate upon 10?"

R: "It can't be done!"
H: "What then?"
R: "When you are a BAKA."
H: "What? It's all BAKA?"
R: "When you like someone you are honest like a BAKA. Let me see, what more... Everything."

H: "But you chooses A."
R: "Um, i did not want to be the bad guy. I knew how i felt then but i decide to pretend not to know about it. Bye."
H: "Rita! I like K now! Are you going to break up with A? Don't do that! I do not want R to end up alone."

R: "It's alright. I'm going to become H."
H: "Huh?"
R: "I'm going to be true to myself like you. No matter what happened, i will be by your side supporting you. If anyone makes you cry, i'm going to beat the crap out of him. If you have things that you are happy about, i will be here to share your joy with you. I will fly to your side when you are being left alone. When you marry K, i will wish you happiness by playing the violin for you...

... i will work hard to become such a person. bye."

H is in tears shouting out R's name in her heart.

R sees A at the corner. She heard everything R tols H.

A: "Tell me, what do you want to tell me?"
R: "I'm sorry, A. There is someone i like. Thank you for everything up until now."

H is on her way to find K and she wonders if he's club activities had ended and she sees R sitting alone and he seems to be crying.

H is shocked but she chooses to turn away.

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Wednesday, December 28, 2011

ヒロイン失格 (Heroine Shikkaku) - Chapter 19

Finally!

Hatori's thoughts "BAKA! Rita that BAKA! Why did he tell me he likes me? There's nothing i can do even if he said that now... I've finally found my happiness with Hiromitsu-kun."

Hatori received a texted from Kousuke asking if she'd reached home safely and she thinks to herself "I'm sorry Rita. The one i like now is Hiromitsu-kun. I really like him... I really like him very much. There's nothing much i can do for you now."

Nakajima informs Hatori of their middle high school gathering next week. Hatori is keen on going however she's worried that Rita might turn up. Nakajima asked Hatori if she'd told Kousuke about Rita's confession and it's better to do it before the gathering. Hatori said she's definitely going to tell Kousuke about it however, she's scared of what's going to come next.

Hatori is worried that Kousuke might think that she's still in love with Rita. Hatori still told Kousuke the truth via text. Kousuke pops by Hatori's class and asked if they can have a talk. Kousuke asked about Hatori's feeling now.

Hatori: "How am i feeling... Rita is important to me and i hope for him to be happy but here is nothing much i can do now."
Kousuke: "Important. I see."
Hatori: "It might seems a little weird but i'm just asking if...

... if im moved by Rita's actions is it alright for Hiromitsu-kun? Is it that easy for you to accept it?"
Kousuke: "I'm sorry Hatori... i'm feeling really bad now. I'm just pretending to be fine."

Hatori thinks that Kousuke is so cute now to feel jealous.
Kousuke: "I take back what i've said just now. I don't allow you to change your heart (feeling for Kousuke himself)."
Hatori: "I'm working hard on my part to not allow myself to change my feelings... if Hiromitsu-kun is unhappy even if it's just alittle i'm can don't go for the class gathering."
Kousuke: "I'm not going to say that. Enjoy yourself! and tell me all about it."
Hatori thinks to herself that she's really lucky to have Kousuke as her boyfriend....

... there's no one other than him who will put himself in my shoes and worry about me.

Nakajima is asking Rita if he's not going for the class gathering because Hatori is worried that Rita will not turn up because of her. Nakajima left know that Rita is not thinking that way.

Adachi called Rita to gather and Rita said he would like to talk to her later.

Adachi looks worried and asked if he can said it now and she went on to ask what she should make for tonight's dinner....

At the gathering. Some of their friends realized the ring on Hatori's hand. Filled with happiness... Hatori said it's finally her turn. lol. Some of the girls asked about Rita and mentioned that they've been wanting to meet him. Just when Hatori is think of coming up with and excuse... Rita is dragged in by one of their friend.

Hatori tries to be friendly and asked Rita to sit beside her but Rita insist that he's fine and sits faraway from Hatori. And this irritating classmate of theirs said "Matsuzaki, you've been dump right? and if i'm not wrong, you and Terasaka-kun had been classmate since junior high right? Naturally you've been going out at least once?" and the other classmates go: "We want to know about it!" Hatori turns to Nakajima for help but she's busy with other classmates.

Hatori thinks "What kind of question are they asking me?" and she tries hard to think of something and she finally said: "A lot happened between us and i've showed him my bra once." (refer to the first few chapters if you need recap) and Hatori went on explaining that it happened when they were is young.... blah blah blah...

Hatori feels exhausted.

Hatori bumps into Rita when she came out from the ladies. Rita tells her to stop (telling their classmates all those stories about them) Hatori is shock and thinks that she's making so much effort to that the gathering can go on smoothly... then she went on saying that this has been Rita all along. (rejecting her kind efforts)

Rita: "We are no longer related."
Hatori: "I know and I'm sorry." and thinks what's with him confessing to me when he likes and building a wall when he likes. I don't understand him at all and she went on to enjoy the rest of the gathering.

The irritating classmate asked if Hatori is attached and if he's equally a jerk. Hatori rebutted that he's very handsome. The irritating classmate went on to tease Hatori not believing anything she said and Rita stood up for Hatori saying that her boyfriend is really handsome and that he's the champion for the school Mister contest and that he's a good catch.

Now the girls are all going: "Woah.... can we have a look at his photo?" While the irritating classmate asked if he's only playing with her and Rita told him off that he's being noisy....

... and he's making things difficult for Hatori and it's his fault for the weird atmosphere since the beginning. Hatori is happy that Rita defended her but she wonders if Rita reads the weird atmosphere too.

When the gathering ended, Hatori called out for Rita.

Hatori thanked Rita while Rita said he's not doing it for her and even though he said that (Kousuke is handsome) but he never thought so. Not even once.
Hatori thinks "What is this?" and she received a call from Kousuke asking for her whereabouts.

Kousuke: "Hatori-chan, im here too."

Kousuke is at the station picking her up! omg~
Putting on a really charming front, Kousuke said: "I've came!" but from the corner of his eyes he's looking at Rita and thinks "I hate it when some pest sticks around."

Hatori looks really happy.

Rita thinks "Is she a Baka?"

Nakajima uses her knee to hit the back for Rita's knee causing to fall down.

Rita: "This is so embarrassing, what do you want with me?"

Nakajima: "I thought you've decided to wipe off your feelings for Hatori?"
Rita: "Hiromistu is irritating and i can't help it."
Nakajima: "You are betraying Adachi do you know?"
Rita: "I don't know what i should do."
Nakajima: "Isn't it alright not to force yourself to wipe off your feelings?"
Rita: "Is that so?"
Nakajima: "It can't be help, you are the worst. I'll tell you if you still don't understand....

... You always do whatever things that pleases you. To be truthful to Adachi? Are you a BAKA? You should have told her that early to avoid all the confusion! You think that you are only telling her the truth? Actually you are hurting her! If you still like Adachi and plans to go out with her, even if it's just a little, keep your feelings for Hatori well! If you can wipe off your feelings for Hatori then break up with Adcahi. You are hurting yourself too!"

Labels: Heroine Shikkaku, Manga